2012 was a very challenging year for me personally. I got a new job, lost that new job, and got another job. Well, job is job and I ain't gonna rant about it here. In 2012, I received a gift from the Heavens..
Ahmad Shamil Naury
27th June 2012
The first time I saw him, my knees were literally failing me. I can't stand. I had to sit down. When I say the Azan for him, I can't hold myself, tears were running o my cheeks. My wife was the calm one, she gave me the strength to carry on. I was asking myself,
"Can I be a good Dad? "
" Can I protect this son of mine? "
"What will I feed him?"
"What do I have to do when he cries?"
" Do I have the strength to wake up in the middle of the night?"
You see, as lot of couples that I know are blessed with their first born after a year of marriage. Me and my missus.. we had to wait for six years. SIX YEARS. Along those years, too many of cynical remarks etc had to be endured. We even cried inside our car because we simply cannot take it anymore. I know, lots of people had the same fate as us but you need to be in our shoes to appreciate what we have gone through. Only then you will understand.
At first, I had trouble just to hold him. The last baby I held was my own brother and he is 21 now. I drove the car like an old woman, just to make sure the baby is safe. I cannot describe in words on how happy me and the missus are now. Just the thought of waking up seeing Shamil's face every single morning makes me thankful to be alive on the next day.
It is like, I finally have a purpose to earn, you know. I have no issues to spent for the best for my boy. My wife, spent hundreds of Ringgits for his stuffs. Let her be. She has waited patiently for the past six years, what is a couple of hundred ringgits a month compared to that. She smiles a lot now, laughs a lot. And both parents of ours, LOVE Shamil. My siblings, whom are not that friendly for babies are now mushies over Shamil. My dad, who is famous for his temper, literally become softer after Shamil's birth. And naturally, my in laws are head over heels for Shamil. And I noticed both of us got better treatment after Shamil's birth. It is amazing on the big changes brought by such a small baby.
I lost my job at Century. My boss declined my confirmation. Shamil was four months old at that time. Even though I was worried, I enjoyed spending time with my son. And naturally, I got a new and better job. I believe this is my son's rezeki and luck. And life continued.
my Mom with Shamil
my two loves..
As a father, I only want the very best for my son. I pray, for him to be a good Muslim, a soleh child, a guardian of his mother when I am dead. I hope he is the one who will bathe my body, cover it with shroud, pray me and read me my talkin. Alhamdulillah Ya Allah, first you gave me a wonderful wife, now you gave a son to me. I will not waste them. This is my promise to You. Help me Ya Allah, to be the best slave, the best son, the best husband and the best dad..Amin..
