well well, looks like my boss is FUCKED

I do believe you all remember how I resigned last week..so here I attach a following email from our Bussiness Director, stating that the clients did compliment me.

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MP HRO
Singapore Speed Dial: ***
20/01/2009 13:12


To
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cc
My manager, My TL, ************, Jimmy Najib/Singapore/*************
Subject
****** *****'s Service Feedback




Hi *********

Met **** ***** and her team this morning.

Overall the service level has improved. ***** ***** have complimented our good service to the processors
Jimmy, ***** and *** ****. She also give positive comments to Jimmy who is able to turn things around and
the response time is much quicker.

I hope this level of service will continue to be maintain so that we will have more happy clients which will result
in more referrals from them.

Once again, thanks team for the effort to keep the clients happy and satisfied.

With warm regards,


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So fuck you bitch. Fuck you. Looks like I won just now. HAHA! Do I want to reconsider? Hell no. My self respect is higger than Singapore dollars.

Finally I gave the letter..

Today 16th Jan (ten days before my 29th birthday), I finally gave my resignation letter to that walking yellow teethed bitch. Yup.Actually I didn't plan to give it out so soon, I was thinking after Chinese New Year would be a more suitable time. But today's incident was the cream of the crap. Personally, I don't care about titles in office. Seriously, I don't want to be a team leader in a dying company. And I am getting to 29th year soon, so I don't think I am a person with team leader skills. I am ready for managerial responsibilities.Its better for me to give them the letter before they give me their letter, if you know what I mean.

Actually, there was a complain from my client that I didn't update the system according to their request. I rechecked my records and I can't find any written request from them. Unfortunately the crap whore head HR of the client accused me of not updating the system (while her HR team members hide, because the know that was not the case), and in that email, she cc'ed my manager. Well, all hell broke lose. My TL, who was out for my blood saw this as her golden opportunity. She smashed me in front of the management, saying I was careless etc. What the fuck. Seriously what the fuck. I was a customer service guy for 2 freaking years and I just started to handle workforce management less than 5 months. I know my work, and I know I cant be THAT BAD. Any big request such as this I am sure to remember. I was really flabbergasted. But my buddy, Joel managed to pull one email from the system that clearly showed that I did respond to client's need, but they gave me incomplete info, so I returned the mail with request for confirmation.Guess what, they never got back to me. So my name was cleared. But still that whore blamed me because I didn't send proper notification mail to the clients before performing year end closing. Fuck that shit, it was never practised before. I was thinking to cover client HR team members, but they never cover me. Well, so much for friendship, fucking weasels. The see me getting fucked by their boss, and none of them interfered to back me up. There were three incidents that forced me to resign, without any proper job offer.

+ My TL was fucked up because she didn't get to the other vendor on time, then she pulled my name out of thin air saying I was the one who was supposed to get to that vendor. Fucks sake, I didn't even know what was the thing about?!!

+ My TL accused me of updating the wrong info in the system, I explained to her that the info in the system for that particular entity was done by operations people.She fucked me without even checking with me, and really placed the blame on me. In the end, the responsible Ops person admitted her mistake. Nobody, even APOLOGIZED TO ME. Fuck!

+My TL, spread lies, saying I told her I was training a lot of people on WFM in K.L last time. For fucks sake, if that was the case, why did I needed the training from WFM people??!

+The latest case above.

The thing is, management is aware of this problem. In fact, everybody in the office knows and hates her, but nobody is willing to talk about it except me. Guess my balls are the biggest in South East Asia office after all. And without proper feedback from other associates, the management can't do shit.Ah forget about it, its all over.

I have two job interviews on the 30th, one which involves a team leader position in a cable TV company, another one is about hiring manager, in a multinational bank. Am hoping to get that management position. Tomorrow I am moving out of this house, to a condo nearby, Then I have to move back to KL, because jobs are there..sigh..I don't know whether I have the financial capacity for it.. But one thing is for sure, I felt relived after I sent my letter to her. I am sure HR will call me this Monday, if they ask me whats my next target, I am going to say, Uh I want to be a model. This I owe to myself.

Why Metal Gear Solid 4 will NOT be avaliable for XBOX360 (at least not from Kojima Production)

Metal Gear Solid 4 Guns of the Patriots was the biggest game for Playstation 3 this year. This is due to the fact that its the ONLY exclusive title from Kojima Production to stay exclusive on Playstation 3, as confirmed from day one. A lot of gamers, bought a PS3 for this game, like me and I can assure you, we are not dissapointed. Given to the fact of this game's pedigree, there were a lot of rumors that Konami is putting a lot of preassure on Hideo Kojima to port this game to XBOX360. Granted, in terms of hardware and capabilities, XBOX360 will have no problem running the game. But do to several reason, I think this will not be possible. This article will explain why is it so. Okay. This article will ignite fire. Seriously. But I am writing based of facts. Cold hard facts. I will present the facts in POINT FORMS so its easy to understand and digest. Let the dice ROLL.

1. Blu Ray



Metal Gear Solid 4 is on a dual layer 34 gb of Blu Ray. Its that much. As of this writing, XBOX360 is only capable of dual layer DVD, amounting of 8 gb of data. Sure, there is nothing wrong about games with multiple discs. The thing is, Metal Gear Solid is a fanchise that is a head of its time. If you follow the Playstation instalment, the main game came with 2 CDs. At that time, the usage of DVD for videogames were still not avaliable, due to the fact no console came with a DVD drive at that time. When Playstation 2 was launched, it came as a DVD player as well as a game player. And Hideo Kojima was one of the early developers that confirmed Metal Gear Solid 2 for it. Sure, the original XBOX was also graced with the game, but it was also because XBOX was a DVD based console, same as Playstation 2. To seal the deal, after you fight Crying Wolf in MGS4, Octacon said, Snake its time to change discs do you see disc 2. Oh thats right we are on the ps3 system it has Blu-Ray, so we have no need to change discs- See? Its all about utilizing the best technologies for the best game. I have also seen comments from RETARDS stating Kojima should compress everything and it should fit 2 DL DVDs. Really, I really hate to be a party pooper but if you again follow MGS from its Playstation Heyday, Kojima is not a fan of compression. MGS1 came with 2 CDs, MGS2 was about 3.8gb of data, same case with MGS3. And any fool can tell you that lossless details uncompressed to you and me, means more details and contents for the game itself. Do you want to have a complete MGS4 experiece or rather a crippled one? Kojima sees MGS franchise as his own son, I dont know any father that would like to see his own son crippled.

2. Metal Gear Solid 3 was originally for Playstation 3.


If you guys have the Making of MGS4 BD from the SE version of the game, you will notice that Kojima stated as above in the BD. Okay, MGS3 was for PS2 and that dont make any sense right? Okay actually that was a clue on Kojima's support for Playstation. If he wanted to make MGS 3 as a multiplatform title like MGS1 (PS and PC) and MGS2 (PS2, Substance=PS2 and XBOX) he would have done so.To add to that, XBOX was about 4 times more powerful than a PS2. So its not about power. Granted, MGS2Substance sold poorly on 360. And fact, PS2 was the market leader at that time. MGS4 was launched nearly after PS3's 1 and a half year on the market, and reffering to the sales of the console, PS3 is clearly behind XBOX360. So why did Kojima chose PS3 as the platform for MGS4 again? Keep in mind, the reason MGS3 was launched on PS2 was because Kojima himself stated that they cant wait Sony to deliver the PS3 any longer so they opted for PS2. The gist of the story? Kojima is/was anticipating the release of PS3.Nuff said.

3. In game advertisements.



We saw Sony Ericcsson phones, Bravias, Mac Book , Playstation 3, Playstation Portable in MGS4. These are all in game advertisements.That means

a) The developers were PAID by these brands to put their product in the game. Paid here means, the development cost of the game is being sponsored in a substancial amount by the brands. Each brand is a competitor for Microsoft. So would you advertise for your competitor? In this sense, Sony got the upper hand. They sponsored the games development, and if the game lands on MS's console, MS would have to PAY Sony to use their brand in the game.

b) The products were rendered in the game by the developers to advertise it. Ask any graphics designer on how hard to render an original product to fit another scenario. So, Naomi, Vamp, Octacon and the whole Campbell briefing scene were using these brands, would you think the developers will coom to each one of the scene to rerender the product to suit MS's needs? Remember there was a Playstation on a desk in Octacon's lab way in PS1? The GC version of the game, The Twin Snakes featured a GC there, and of course, the game was not from Kojima's team, it was made by Silicons Knights, from ground up.Kojima only supervised. If you watched the Making of MGS4 BD from the SE version of the game, you will know that staffs in Kojima Production were really high on tension because of the game. Hell, even Snake controls MK11 with a DS3. And imagine yourself as Kojima, walk in a room full of tensed employees and say, Good job with MGS4 guys. Microsoft just landed another fat cheque to us and all we have to do is to remodel each Apple and Sony product in the game, replace it with something else. Oh, take out that BD joke too..

4. SIXAXIS Motion Sensor.


MGS4 used motion sensors. Especially in controlling Mantis' dolls. Sure you can use the 360's thumbstick on that, but where is the fun in that? During the boring briefing sections you can tilt the sixaxis up to lift the mkII up. And when you are hiding in the trash bins (who doesnt right? )You can tilt it to peak out.*credits to my buddy Amir for the additional info*Even the return of vibration excites Kojima.

5. Hard Disk Drive is not a standard for 360.

Its an optional add on for 360. MGS4 requires installation due to the large files of the game and the DVD drive cant read data as many as PS3's BD drive. This will be an issue if a gamer buys the game for his 360 yet unable to play it due to it requires a HDD. 5 Gb at least.

There you have it, in point form. Clearly, Kojima himself favors PS3 over 360. I have presented the facts, it up to you guys to think about it. I would love to see MGS4 on 360, but lets face it folks, Kojima is one tough nut to crack. People like him have self respect, and not everybody will bow to MS' dollars. Only if there is another team would like to build the game from scratch for 360, something like The Twn Snakes...

A lot of things happened last week..

A lot of things happened last week. Mostly sad things. I broke my wife's heart, and she was unable to forgive me. But by the grace of God, she managed to forgive me. I am so sorry Honey, I will not repeat the same mistake again. I am a changed man. I thank you for giving me another chance, this is why I love you so much.. Then, I got MC for three days since last Wednesday. While I was returning from Gents, I felt dizzy and collapsed in the Office. My collegues took me to a clinic in Cine Tech 1, where the doctor gave me MC. Actually, it was a blessing from God, HE gave me the chance to patch things up between my wife and I. It was extremely emotional, I will stop writing about it here.

Poka, our furkid, was hit by a mysterious illness. After we came back from our monthly shopping, I found him looking depressed, so I took him inside. His head was tilting and his eyes were experiencing REM. We took him to the government vet the next day, only to find out that they too are puzzled by it. They suggested that my boy's nerve system is damaged and they is nothing they can do except subscribing some antiobiotics. We nearly bursted into tears. He was looking very week since he was refusing food. But alhamdulillah, after the MA gave him the injection, he slowly stops the REM. My wife did some reading and found out about the desease head tilting desease . It quite rare. I lifted him and place him inside a box in a corner of our house. He cant walk properly since his balancing is already out. He slept all day, but I forced food inside his throat, water too. For me, in order for him to be strong, he got to take some food, by hood or by crook. My hands were bruised by his scratchings, but it was all worth it when I saw him licking and grooming himself the next morning (for you cat nuts you should know that this is a sign that the cat is recovering) I called my wife and we shed tears. Then he wanted to eat, so we game him some. I still cant walk properly, but at least the food intake have continued. So this Hari Raya Haji we are taking him back to KL since he cant take care of himself. Toro will go to the cat hostel. From my wife's reading, it can be resolved with time. No worries Poka, we will continue to love you as usual, no matter how you are.

I got some new games..

Motorstorm 2 Pacific Rift

Genre : Offroad Arcade Racing
Platform: Playstation 3 Exclusive Multiplayer : local and online Trophy Support : Yes

Graphics : This game looks better than the prequel (obviously) Rides now are able to catch flame if driven on volcanos etc. But, if I take another peek at Gran Turismo 5 Prologue , I know Evolution Studios can do better.Oh, that screenshot function rocks.

Audio : Supports up to 5.1 Dolby thingamajig, if you have one. The thing is, you can literally hear your opponents' engine at the back of the pack (audio clue) while racing, pretty cook to me. And the rocking soundtrack adds more fun in it. 2 things tho, I hope the next Motorstorm adds blo off valve sounds in the game, most of the vehicles offered are Turbo vehicles so a Blow off valve hissing sound is natural. Oh yeah... NO CUSTOM SOUNDTRACK SUPPORT SUCKS. We demand a patch for this, NOW!

Gameplay : Well, obviously this time the game is set on an island filled with volcanoes, thick jungle and lush seaside. So you do the math. On top of that, Evo Studios also added Big Foots in the game. Yup. Big Foots. I hate them. Since they can screw almost everybody. Pure power yet to slow for my liking. The vehicles handle well, the controller is responsive and I must say the vibration effect is superb. You can almost feel each bump and gravel on the track. And online mode features no lags at all. Also, its region free, means a chap from Malaysia can race with a dude in US without any hiccups.

Innovation : This is a racing game. Adding more tracks and vehicles is already considered as an innovation. This is not Motorstorm's strong point as this gentre is so cliched, however I would like to point out on Evo's network expertise creating a lagless online racing. That is something to be proud of.

Get this if : 1. You dig the first Motorstorm
2. You like franctic action
3. You prefer 'no-commitment' kinda game. This game can be serious and casual.
4. You hate the latest Need for Speed: Undercover.

Little Big Planet

Genre : Action Platformer
Platform: Playstation 3 Exclusive
Multiplayer : local and online
Trophy Support : Yes

Graphics: One of the most best looking games avaliable of PS3. The details of Sackboy is shocking, you can even see his zippers for God's sake! I really like how the blurring technique is used to capture the details of the main character. The colorful world of Little Big Planet comes with vibrant colors, friendly and interesting characters and more. Definately an eye candy and a great way to boast that awesome display that you have,

Audio: Now, this is where it gets interesting. Each stage comes with its won unique track, and coupled with 5.1 sound system, you can hear each shime and chirp inside the game. Seriously.

Gameplay : Its seperated into 2 main components, the usual single player stuffs and the custom level stuff. The single player contains your basic side scrolling action, and to my suprise, when my wife switches the second controller on, her character fromher profile pops inside my 'box'! So its like the second coming of Super Mario. The controls are a bit 'iffy', means sometimes my jumps can go distance, sometimes no. Something that the devs can look at.

Innovation : Okay, the best part. You can create your own level (learn how with the simple to understand tutorial) and publish it on the net. How cool is that. However Media Molecule is extremely strict on copyrighted stuffs, means you cant publish MGS or Super Mario lookalike levels (safe if nobody reports you tho) And how the tropy system works, it forces you to be a all rounder gamer and explore all the functions of the game. Oh yeah, lets say you are stuck on one level, just invite a friend , tow or three to help you on that level.Viola!

Get this if : 1. You want to experience the next gen stuff Sony has been blaberring about
2. You are looking for soemthing you can share with your wife/kids/husbands
3. You like the SIMs
4. You have a Playstation 3. This game is essential in each PS3's owners' library.

That's all for now. Actually I also got Valkyria Chronicles and Penny Arcade Adventures: On the Rain-Slick Precipice of Darkness but I am too busy with those two earlier games, later if I have the time I will review both games. Until then, see you guys.

今日気分無し。

私の頭部の傷、私の腹痛および私の目は痛む。私は何が起こったか知らない。 朝は雨、重い雨で満ちていなかった。 日は湿気があった。 食べるために空腹に感じるAMしかしお金無し。また、ここに何も私に興味を起こさせない。 この来る給料日私はインドのレストランに再度行っている。 そこの食糧は安く、それらは私のオフィスに近づく。私は私が今月末の前に仕事を得てもいいことを望む。 私はこの見捨てられた人種差別の国を去るために待つことができない。 とにかく私の妻は、私がに先に見てもいい何か明日もどって来ている。 私はそれらから私達ある私の猫のための少しだけ魚を買わなければならない。 サーディンも。

The Moment I Stop Giving

The moment I stop going to work
Stop riding my bike 100 kms to go to Singapore
Stop thinking about my family
Stop smiling to my wife
Stop joking with my wife
Stop eating my wife's cooking
Stop providing for my family
Stop listening to my wife's day
Stop praying for the success of my family
Stop calling my wife Honey
Stop saying I love you to my wife
Stop waking up
Stop opening my eyes
Is the day I stop breathing.

Do continue with your lives
Don't remember my passing
Do keep in mind on how I was living...

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There are still good people on Internet

Today, I am pleasantly suprised when I logged into my favorite message board, The Snake Soup to see this. I guess there are still nice people over the Internets. I am a member of that site and to tell you the truth, thats the first site I would login each morning. The Snake Soup is a very critical fanbase of Metal Gear Solid. I have come across a lot of MGS fansites, but TSS stands on its own. Maturity, thats the game they play there. Members there are matured enough to discuss the plus and minus of each MGS games, without those OMG! KOJIMA IZZ GODZ crap. Thats why, I feel welcomed and from what I have seen so far, I am the only member from South East Asia. Through that site, I learned more about psycholoinguistics, culture and many more interpersonal semantical skills. What I like most about the site is, the members constantly remind themselves that they are humans and they do have a life besides Metal Gear Solid.

Workwise, one of my collegue throws in her resignation letter today. Apparently, she cant stand the workload and the managements' preassure over her. I dont blame her, she was a waitress before for god's sake.Which donkey hired her to do office job, this is a case of a wrong job profile match. Now she handles Benefits for one of our biggest client. Benefits here applies to the full spectrum of Flexi and personal claims. The thing is, the system that my place is using sucks serious donkey ass. Way back in Kuala Lumpur, I was not exposed with it as I was too busy manning the Contact Center. As I am now part of the team, I can see how they work, and I feel blessed not doing what they are doing. Just imagine, client A submits an online claim application and mails his receipts to his HR folks. The HR folks will then courier the receipts to our Operations team here for them fo manually find the receipt, one by one according to the claims submitted online. Isn't that just crazy? I thought system was introduced to make out life easier. Not happening here in Singapore folks. I have suggested to the management to add a function inside the system for the clients to SCAN their copy of the receipts
and upload it into the system. Apparently, the client rejected the idea because they are afraid their staffs would be lining up in front of the scanning machines to do so. Fucking lame excuse if you ask me. This is the problem when clients take us as vendors, not business partners.

Teluk Chempedak in Kuantan.

On the other hand, my wife is going back to her hometown in Kuantan. She had he final exam yesterday so she wants to relax with her family there. Not a problem with me, she deserves the rest. She will return to Johor next week Tuesday. I guess I will be eating this everyday until she returns..Oh I miss her cooking..

Wow, fried fish..again..and again..sigh..

Yeah! I just received a call from her. Apparently we overpaid the university so this month, I have extra RM500 to spend!! Wiiiiiii!! Now I can finally get her that perfume she always wanted..

Okay this is my shopping list for this month.

Motorstorm 2.
There is nothing wrong with getting down and dirty online.

Little Big Planet

Something me and my wife can enjoy together. My wife already made me promose to buy this so this is a keeper.

Valkyria Chronicles
A strategy RPG. It has been a long time since we had one Another game me and the wife can enjoy.

Okay, I guess its back to work for me. Got a couple of issues I have to check from my end.