Saturday Shenanigans

If I had to pick a day that felt like ours, this was it. Saturday, 19th March. A day that flowed from one moment to another like it was meant to happen. And man, what a beautiful ride it was.

We kicked off the morning with something close to her heart—a visit to a speech therapy center for her daughter, Syifa. We checked out the syllabus, asked all the right questions, and left with some answers and a bit more hope. It wasn’t your typical “romantic” start, but it meant something. And that made it special.

Next stop—Subang, for her hair treatment. Like any classic gentleman (trying to score brownie points, of course), I picked up the tab. She tried to fight me on it, but I won that round. The smile she wore after? Totally worth it.

Then came breakfast at Mahbub in Bangsar—quick, hot, and heavy on the sambal. And while we were at it, why not go for skin treatment at BSC? That place has changed so much, man. The comic corner I used to love? Gone. But the nostalgia hit like a warm wave.

Feeling adventurous (and with my car protesting the idea), we drove up to Genting Highlands. The squeaks from the back axle were practically singing their own song, but we made it. Took a stroll. Laughed. Ate a dinner so bad we couldn’t stop joking about it. And here’s the kicker—we unknowingly took a photo at the exact same spot where I once stood with my ex. Life’s irony knows how to twist the plot, huh?

We wrapped up the day at Pavilion Bukit Jalil with a movie—Blood Brothers. Predictable plot, John Wick-style fight scenes, but it still hit the spot. First time trying the Indulgence hall, and bro, it lived up to the hype. Recliner seats, blankets, and nachos that didn’t taste like cardboard? Count me in.

All in all, it was a day well spent. From therapy to mountains to malls, every little thing stitched a memory into place. I’m grateful. Alhamdulillah.

And yeah… I love her. I really do.

 

Yesterday's positive vibes

 Day

Took my girl to LHDN to settle her client's issue. That office at Jalan Duta. Last time I was there, thinking 2013...until now the vibe is still the same. We had breakfast lunch and sent her home to pick up her car, and she was off to her office. Another quality time with her. 

Night

Took the kids to see their mother at Melawati Mall's Sushi King for dinner. I can say, that was the most civil and happy moment for everybody since the divorce  including her. Alhamdulillah. Reminded my ex wife that I am gonna need her help to watch the kids while I take Nina my girlfriend out the whole day tomorrow. She's gonna sleep at my house tomorrow. Since me and my girl are going to catch a late night movie which will finish at 2am Sunday, am gonna sleep at my parents. Cant wait.

Looks like everything is going fine, alhamdulillah

Hikmah Tuhan Tiada Bertepi

Masa aku nak bercerai dulu, aku pertahankan rumah tangga aku dengan pelbagai cara dan usaha. Sampai, aku tak makan. Ya. Aku tak makan. At least not the heavy stuff. Aku takda selera. Aku masak je macam biasa untuk famili. Usually aku masak sambal, ayam goreng, daging etc. Buat je bekal untuk anak bini. But the thought of my wife leaving me, makes me wanna puke each time I wanna eat. So aku opt tu minum je. 5 bulan. 5 bulan aku pertahankan apa yang aku mampu sebelum dia decide untuk abandon marriage 2 dekad ni. So aku bukan saja hilang dia, aku hilang detailed below

Berat badan

Before : 165kg 

Now : 130kg

Waistline 

Before : 65 inch 

Now : 53 inch

Segala seluar yang aku beli kat tiktok dan Shoppee previously tak muat, dah muat weh. Aku mcm serious lah. And ada member kata finally nampak balik leher aku hahaha. Aku perasan kesihatan aku pon banyak sangat improve. Itu tak exercise ye, aku cuma tak makan. So la ni, aku selalu2kan pi gym, layan threadmill for at least 6k steps setiap 2 hari, weight lifting etc. Aku mmg betul2 rasa segar.

Then, aku dah mula dekat pada Allah. Aku tahajud. Aku buat solat taubat. dan maybe korang kata cliche, tapi memang betul. Aku dapat rasa tenang. Aku la nih, doa pun pendek je lepas solat. Something mcm nih.

" Ya Allah kekasih hatiku, aku dan keluarga bersyukur atas segala nikmatMu, dari sebesar2 zarah sehingga yang sebesar2 perkara. Kau aturkanlah hidup aku dan anak2 sebaik-baiknya, kami redha pada aturanMu yang kami tahu terbaik untuk kami, cuma kami mohon ampunilah dosa kami, berjayakanlah cita-cita kami di dunia dan akhirat, amin"

Tak meleret-leret dah. Allah tau je apa kita nak. Cuma ye lah, kita kena selalu la bagi tau Dia. Dan selalu manja2 dengan Dia. Bgtau la pasal sakit hati kau, dada kau yg kengkadang sesak etc. Dia Maha Mendengar. dan aku mmg rasa masa aku merintih2 mengadu2 tu, Dia dengar setiap perkataan. In a way, itu we time. Allah and I. Haha. 

Ngan ex wife, will kira aku nih nasib baik. We are in civil relationship sebab anak2 kan. So alhamdulillah. Aku yakin inilah aturan terbaik Allah untuk aku dan anak2.

Meanwhile aku dengan girlfriend still dalam process kenal2. Aku harap dapat settlekan dengan dia in 2 years time. Since dua2 kami still ada trauma, kami kena betul2 take time nak kenal masing2 dan aku sendiri kena repair financials aku. Doakanlah (macam la ada org baca blog aku nih HAHAHHAHAHA)

OK lah later. Aku nak sambung kerja. 

Rasa Nak Menulis Kembali

Last time aku update nih, 2016. Sekarang dah 2025. 9 years give or take. Macam-macam dah jadi. Boleh kata, aku kat Facebook pon dah malas menulis. Aku this year dah 45. Anak dan dua, 13 and 6. Dan aku dah 2 bulan menduda..single dad. Ya. Single dad. Selepas 20 tahun, isteri, la nih bekas isteri aku decided to call it quits. Alasan dia...dah tak sayang aku. Dah takda rasa. Tapi kami ok ja, on co parenting. Kami respect anak2 nak stay mana. And sebab ex aku mampu sewa bilik je, anak2 stay ngan aku. So aku takda la mcm nak gila sangat. Tapi mula2 tu mmg horror. Aku sampai depression. Rumah aku, ha mcm rumah org Jepun depression tu. Bersepah. Bila ex aku datang melawat anak2, bau perfume dia pun boleh buat aku menangis. Ya aku menangis. Aku sebenarnya berusaha nak selamtkan perkahwinan aku dah 5 bulan. Berat badan aku dari 160kg turun sampai 130kg. Pinggang dari 60 turun ke 53. That bad. Aku mmg tak makan basically. Masak utk famili je. Macam2 aku buat tapi menyakitkan hati je nak tulis kat sini as mengingatkan aku pada benda2 sia2 yg aku dah buat. Aku dekatkan diri pada Allah. Solat taubat, solat tahajud. semua lah. ada la sikkit tenang. sikit. Then aku mcm dah nak give up on life. Apa salah aku..sampai satu malam, aku doa pada Allah, 

"Ya Allah, kalau dia bukan untukku lagi, Kau cabutlah segala rasa cinta aku pada dia di hatiku ini. Tak daya dah aku nak bersedih macam ni. Aku ada lagik anak2 bergantung pada aku, mak bapak aku harapkan aku, aku tak boleh gagal. Kau cabut lah segala cinta aku padanya"

Dan lepas 2 hari, sunggoh2 Allah tarik semuanya. Mmg aku rasa numb. Takda rasa. Then aku gagahkan diri aku, aku mandi. Aku kemas rumah. Segala benda yang pada aku, aku tanak, aku BUANG. Took me 3 days untuk nampak balik lantai rumah aku. Anak2 terkejut but they were happy. Then aku, haha, register myself on a dating site.

Kerja, aku tak kat Pos dah. La nih aku kat airport. dah 8 tahun sini. So far aku happy la dengan benefits etc. Keluarga aku mmg depend pada benda tu. So the growth tu mcm stagnant, tapi yelah, kerja chill, flexible and benefits okay. So aku malas nak move. Dan aku tak jaga HR dah. Aku lebih pada communications la nih. So okay la kot. Dah umur2 aku nih, dah cecah 5 figures, with good benefits, dah takdak apa au nak kejar lah. 

Kat dating app tu, aku jumpa several women. Most of them unstable..tanya benda pelik2 mcm 'package size' etc. Aku tak tau if that is the new norm of online dating as aku dah lama tak dating, 20 years in fact. So several days before Ramadhan this year, I met this amazing lady. A single mother with 3 children. Personality dia, cara dia carry diri dia, cara dia layan aku..mmg wow. Pertama kali aku jumpa dia LIVE, 18th March 2025. Dia teringin nak makan Yong Tau Foo, so aku beranikan diri mintak location rumah dia untuk hantar yong tau foo tu kat dia..and the rest is history. Kali pertama aku nampak dia drive, Allahu aku terus jatuh cinta. Dia pulak bawak anak2 dia sekali masa tu, aku terus jatuh sayang pada depa gak. Aku memang target nak carik single mom. And paling best, anak2 aku approve of this relationship. So kami dating first time on the 22nd March kat Tony Romas Melawati Mall. We gave ourselves 2 years to prepare and get to know one another. So..yeah..that's me now. And she is 34...like 11 years younger than me. Yang aku tau, she makes me feel wanted and special. And dia seorang yang sangat baik. And now kami senang berkenal2 lah..whatsapp jiwang2, rindu2, bergayut telefon sampai 2 jam..ah indahnya nikmat bercinta. Aku akan prepare diri aku betul2 this time. I mean rumah aku kecik, 3 bilik. Combined, anak kami ada 5 org. 2 boys 3 girls. Kereta pun ASX je. Takpa, aku akan usaha. Allah akan bantu. Insya Allah. 

Game? erm. Now on PS5, baru keluar Monster Hunter Wilds. So mostly on that lah, and Gran Turismo 7. 

Okay, aku tak tau apa nak tulis lagik. Sampai sini je dulu . Ada senang aku update balik. Chiow.